“You can't change today's outcome but you can control your effort. Push through it.” That is the saying I have posted on a sticky note on the desktop of my laptop. At the beginning of the day I had every intention of being back in Lennoxville by this point but circumstances have lead to me spending the night at the airport in New York.


Things this time around have been very different, even before this day came. For the past couple months I have fought with if God was leading me back. Amidst my obstacles I was lead to know and trust that I was on the right track because of these obstacles. When you're doing Kingdom work, Satan will try every way in the world to get you to turn away from it. It started with shoulder pains that became very intense, so much so that I thought I needed another operation to fix it. Another member of the team was facing a similar situation with physical pain and so with this I really wondered if I was doing the right thing. Today we start the day off great with the first two flights to D.C. And New York arriving on time only to find that our flight to Montreal was canceled. To make it worse, every other flight was canceled to Montreal and even to Toronto. The reason was because of bad weather and now we are in the middle of enduring a 15 hour wait before our next flight.

Indeed Satan does whatever he can to stop the pursuit the Gospel to the nations. During this time I have been reading the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. In a chapter I read earlier in the week, he talked having and placing yourself in positions where only God can pull through. That's radical faith! My situations and obstacles have been things only God can come through with. Is it terrifying? Absolutely. Is it uncomfortable? Yes. Will it be rewarding? You bet. I believe God thrives off of situations where only He can make it happen. It's how He shows how big and sovereign He is and how small and needy we are for Him.

I may not enjoy sitting and spending the night on an uncomfortable metal bench in New York but then again when was the last time Jesus had a comfortable spot (or a spot in general for that matter) to lay his head? Francis Chan ends his book by making really think about what you want to be doing when Christ comes back. It's easy to say that I would want to be glorifying Him when He comes back but the reality is is that I'm to full of sin not to beg Him to give me the desire to be doing that.

So what will you do? What will I do? “You can't change today's outcome but you can control your effort. Push through it.” It's fitting and true. I sure tried to change today's outcome, but couldn't. But there is a God who can change today's outcome. I probably wouldn't be sitting here typing this if things had stayed on schedule. My prayer this week leading up to the trip was one of just asking God to bring me closer to Him, no matter what it will take. That is my prayer for you as well.